"why is you depressed when you is a child"

This is my first story so bear with me.... I relate to this picture so much and i will tell you why. When i was in 5th grade i was feeling sad and disconnect in the world at that time i didn't know what it was called but, when i grow up more i was still feeling this way and i still don't know why because, in everyone eyes i had everything and it looked like i was happy, But i wasn't at all i was just hiding it so well from the world until my 8/9th grade year. During, Covid-19 when i was virtual going to 10th. That's when everything was falling apart my mental health was messed up and i couldn't take it anymore So, i told my mother which was a great and bad idea at the same time because, she was there for me more and she went told have of my family members.They tried to help me but it didn't last long i fell more into depression and i was diagnosis with anxiety. But that wasn't the worst part in February of last year i was diagnosis with type 2 diabetes when i am already a sickel cell patient. I cried for two days because, i don't eat candy i never liked candy at all so it was a shocked to me and i am also overweight. Which i am working on to lose weight.

If you got some ideas to lose weight please let me know and i have talked to other people about my problems and it still ain't work. I tried to be the perfect daughter and sister but can't i am selfish and only think about myself which i need to stop asap because, i will not make it life like that but i am also mice and sweet i don't show my evil/mad side ever unless you really did me something to be mad at you. I always like to give when i don't have it and i am always careless with money since i was 13 So, i didn't know how to save money but that beside the point. if any teens reading this i want you to know come write to me and any parents reading this check on your kids.

This picture i relate to because, my dad was always there for me and spoiled both me and sister actually i am a twin and i am a Sagittarius. My father after 16 years and claimed me for 16 years now all of the suddenly your new "wife" made you not to speak to your kids which he have 6 by the way and outta 5 of 6 don't speak to including me. Just one siblings because, they both is alike i guess and i was daddy little girl till he broke it. I will tell you why he had me in the wedding but kick me out for his sister and they never liked me and my family for no reason. that's where all my depression come from is him and i was so angry with him for years until i said i am done with him. now i am happy but some of that anger is still with me and i have to learn how to Controll it because, i am starting to put holes in my walls and i think know why. Its a quicker why to get rid of the anger i guess but i know it ain't gonna solve my problems at all so i talked to my therapist and he suggested i write in my journal.

Thats not even the hard part the hard part is school a lot of teens get depressed from school and all the pressure with parents too. why? you asked because, teens feel like they have to perfect and have to have very good grades for there parents. I used to feel that why even though i am not the smart twin but hey i am passing am i lol and i am not book smart but i am definitely street smart for sure and my sister is book smart but not street smart. i have problems learning and no one knows because, i don't want people to treat me different at all. so a lot of depression comes from parents and school. school is the definition of depression.

Now at the end i have found the person who make me happy everyday sometimes relationships ain't perfect. we have our littler fights and disagreement but mostly of the time we are happy i have cheated before because, when my dad left i was looking for love in the wrong places until i found him and he make me the happiest girl alive. he cares about me and he is actually my first love actually trust me i was scared as hell because, i didn't have love with no one i was in a relationship with and i love him so much.

I hope you like my story and if want advice or more stories just let me know this is my first story ever i never thought i would have the balls to do it and i would also like some advice