Reality story

If I did poorly in math, my mother would be very angry.

I never saw my mother get angry if I did poorly in religion, society, or Bengali.

But even if I got 1 mark less in mathematics, my mother would be visibly angry.

First of all, she would throw away the result card.Then he would hold me by my collar and lift me up on the dining table. Then he would give me the big angel of his suffering.

What have I done for you? I quit my job, from morning till night I don't even let you hold a jug of water.I wake up early in the morning and prepare tiffin. I bring it again in the afternoon. To see all this?

You can't score a hundred in the class five exam, how can you become an engineer?

I listen to my mother silently. I feel unbearable. I want to shout, I will not become an engineer. My screams are choked in my throat.Ammu is now a fire of anger. I don't have the courage to add fuel to that fire.

Ammu's second round of discipline would start after Nahid Bhai came to teach.

Nahid Bhai would sit with his eyes downcast. I felt so ashamed that I couldn't say anything. Ammu didn't feel ashamed.He kept saying, "We don't let our father see this much money. It's hard money for us too. If Rafi gets so many marks while he's a teacher at the National University, what's the use of me keeping him a student at a public university?"Nahid Bhai doesn't answer.

I understand, he's helpless. Just like me.

That day, teaching doesn't add up. We keep doing calculations like robots.

It's not like I don't study. What will happen to me when the bar exam comes, my marks don't match up at all. What's my fault here?2.

I rarely see my father.

The first reason is that he is very busy with his bank work. The second reason is that I am afraid of him.

Once my father asked me in the guise of a story, what did you learn in school today, father? I told my father the poem I had just learned,

Mom said, read it, my dear

Father said, listen.My mind does not rest in the smell of jackfruit. I only want to be near the river, hiding in the branches of the birch and calling like a bird. When everyone falls asleep in the nest of the cornflower, the angels turn over the bowl of the milky moon.Then I just kept thinking

How will I fly......

Dad stopped me. He said, the moon is not a bowl. The moon is a satellite. And the moon is not turned upside down by angels. Who teaches science in your school? Tell me, what is the square root of 144?

I can't say. I stopped.

Dad roared angrily at Mom.The job market is very bad now. If this is the case with Math, what will you do in the future? Why don't you look at something......

Since that day, I have been very afraid of my father.

Because I told you before, I don't like Math at all.

3.

Tutul was my best friend.

Yes, that's how school best friends are. If Tutul doesn't come to class, I don't go to class either. We used to sit on the same bench. We used to share tiffin. Once, Sir threw Tutul out. I also went out immediately.After the results of the five scholarship were announced, I was very upset. I didn't get the scholarship, that's why.

But when I found out that Tutul had got the scholarship, I didn't feel bad anymore. I gave two digbajis with joy. I came to my mother and told her the news, laughing.

And that was the first time that my mother raised her hand against me.At night, my father came and explained how Tutul had made a fool of me. He had secretly read it instead of letting me read it. Then my father put his hand firmly on my head and said, "Be calculative. Make sure no one can use you. Clear?"I shook my head. The next day, I called Tutul a liar, a liar, and everything in between. Tutul, who left the packet of sweets and ran away, never came in front of me again.

Since then, I have never had a best friend. I thought I would never have one again.It is possible to make friends with calculations. Not best friends.

But no, I got my best friend in class nine. Another one.4.

I met Bahadur on the street.

When he first came after me, I was very scared. I've been scared of dogs since I was a child!

But when I came out of school after school, I saw him sitting in the corner of the field waiting for me, and my heart was filled with a strange feeling of love.After how long, someone waited for me!!

The friendship on the street started getting stronger day by day. Sometimes I would buy the porridge, sometimes I would give my entire tiffin box.He would make a whining noise. I would put my hand on his head.

Going to school with me and then dropping me off at home became his daily routine.

Polapine used to pester me to bring a dog bodyguard. I didn't like it at all.Love and affection are strange things. Once they are ingrained, nothing else matters.5.

Father's transfer notice came after a year.

Within two days, everything in our house was loaded onto a truck. There was no room for Bahadur. I held onto my father's feet, my mother's ankles, and rolled on the ground.Our truck passed before Bahadur's eyes. Dad was explaining to me, "Be calculative." What's the point of taking a dog this far? Boy, is it okay to be so emotional?6.

I knew very well that my relationship with Tithi would not be accepted at home.

But I never thought that my mother would send someone to Tithi's house and threaten her.

Tithi was a strong girl, of course. She looked me in the eye and said, "Can you run away with me?"I lowered my eyes. The date never came before me again. I thought, I will forget it easily.

I couldn't stand it. Sleep disappeared. I gave up eating and drinking. I also gave up studying. I wandered here and there. One day, I gave the house a brick in my hand to check. I didn't feel any pain. I understood, my feelings were dead.The next week I was tied up and admitted to the hospital. My father said, "The doctor has to cure him. I have an only son, and I raised him very lovingly."

The doctor put me to sleep.

7.

I became a father after three years of marriage.

I am happy to be a father. My parents are even happier. By that time, I had completed my MBA and had spent three years on a six-figure salary. There is a lot of buzz in the office that I will be in seven figures in a few days.In the meantime, Toru said, what is the state of the country's education system, have you seen it?

I shook my head.

He kept saying, nodding my head won't do anything. You have become a father, you have to think about your son's future. Can we try to migrate to Europe, whether it's Canada or not? I don't want to raise a child in this country.It's not something I haven't thought about myself.

After listening to the young man, I started thinking more loudly.

I calculated everything. House, car, career switch, debit, credit, how long it would take to get PR, schooling system or day care system.Savings or insurance. It's quite difficult to organize everything, but I manage it in the end.

Dad says, when are we going? Mom says, is it too cold in Canada?I said in an even colder voice, "We're going. You're not going."

8.

After that, my parents screamed a lot.

I couldn't hear them anymore.Since leaving Tithira, I am no longer afraid of leaving people. Is there any point in scaring me?

Mom says, I held you in my stomach to see you today? How can I stay here alone?

I say, Bahadur was also alone, Mom!!Dad says, have I taught you this? Don't you have that much love for Dad?

I say, Calculation Dad. What is the benefit of taking you and your mother? An old man, can't you do any work, do you know the cost of medical treatment and medicine outside? If I have to do all this, how will I raise my child?And you taught me calculation. You didn't teach me love!!

Dad finally fell silent. Mom didn't fall silent.

As the day of our flight approached, Mom started acting like a madman. Sometimes she would plead for society, sometimes for religion, and sometimes for Bengali culture.Stupid girl!!

I left Bengali, religion and society that time.

Now I only understand mathematics. How can you expect sociology or religion from me after teaching calculations all my life!!

What a disgusting bunch of backdated old people!!

Written by: Sadiqur Rahman Khan

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