Word of the Day: 生贄

The timer went off again. I was trying to put ointment on my feet. But now I must wash clothes. That is kind of hard, isn't it? now the clothes are going to have zinc all over them.

I am also drinking energy drinks right now so I guess I am planning on a long night either way.

I did take a nap today so, it was bound to happen.

The remaining TODOs for 4/2/2026:

• Find Scissors
• Foot care
• Ped Egg
• Lotion Feet
• Neosporin
• Zinc cream.

Well, I am not up for anything at this point but. I guess I have to go down the queue.

I handled foot care barely but I guess that warrants some acknowledgement.

I want to sleep but, that also requires me to take off my contacts as I already slept in them for 2 days straight now.

I don't think I can sleep in them all the time.

I also still have cream on my fingers so, being on the computer is also not very good. I will have to clean that as well.

Why does he always hate all the food I like? He can't live off of tomatoes.

Probably me at this point. I feel I am holding on more than him.

This feels like a weird loss tonight. I am not in pain, but I feel loss.

I guess because like I mentioned before. i have many phone calls to make and it is too late to make any at this time.

That is also a thing too. I feel like, I can't be honest with the feelings I have.

I think women only love 2 people at a time. Like only truly.

One represents our Devil, the other represents our Angel.

Anything past that, our hearts can't hold.

I think it is the same for men, but I think they're not honest with that.

Ah, it is interesting if these are two aspects of the same person.

Possibly.

Ah yea, it feels weird to want him this badly. It is obsessive, but it might also be a manipulation of everything around me. Regardless of anything, I adore him.

Lol, am I eating because I am bored now? lol.

Probably... he complained about that once to me. I was like... that is the weirdest thing to complain about.

" When I didn't talk to you... I just ate and ate and ate. "

I talked to him because I had to, I was writing about him too much and it was stupid.

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I don't have to eat all this food, I can put it away. I guess this is some sort of leftover pain from my grandfather.

A fly keeps bothering me, I have no idea when it came into the house. I won't kill it though, it is my daughter's friend.

Yea my mind feels fried but only because I haven't been able to drink or have weed in a long time.

I will most likely have some tomorrow, but there is nothing I can do right now.

I have decided that I need to drink all the milk I have because, I don't remember when I bought it. i bought to make chocolate milk but I also remember people used to use hot milk to go to bed with, so drinking at this time of day feels proper somehow.

I wrote OSP on my TODOs but I have no idea what that stands for. It cost me 33 bucks so... I am going to have to check my Budget Planner today as that is not very specific for me to know whether or not that was already paid or still owed.