"Fixing" Made Drama

It's frustrating trying to have a relationship with someone you find out never wanted to have a real relationship with you in the first place. They present you with issues to fix that you didn't start. They don't even want the issues fixed in the proper way either. They don't want anything to happen where everyone gets a fair say, build trust, and find reasons to gain closer intimacy.

Trying to be in a relationship like this is exhausting. There is someone there who likes to create drama everywhere they go and leave the mess for someone else to clean up. They enjoy the excitement rush and fun out of the drama going on with none of the repercussions. The aftermath would be for whoever they position to be seen as the one who created the situation. This someone may be the type who tries to make others happy or stays away from stirring up situations. I don't spend much time with many other people and usually try to keep what I need to clean up to a minimum, so having to clean up someone else's constant mess was extremely irritating.

Stuck around people like this I was always trying to fix what is near impossible. The person who doesn't want to take accountability avoids speaking directly to me, sending others to speak to me for them while also making their own issues with me so that I had to solve made up issues with them as well as trying to fix the original problem. If I told those people I need to speak to who started the problem in the first place and go to them, they would avoid the subject or brush it over. Every attempt for clarity was rerouted and made to look like my fault while I was actively trying to deal with everything thrown at me.

Every gesture of kindness was taken negatively on my part. If I baked something for everyone to enjoy, they would say I was trying to compete by coming with tasty food. If I tried help others with a day that was about them, I was repaid by having a time that was supposed to be finally mine stomped all over. Every moment was a new complaint and reason to turn what should be a normal situation into a constant emotional destruction zone. It felt just like Alice face palming while she had to listen to the incessant whining spewing from the Queen of Hearts.

These types of entitled people who only want a thrill while not caring about how much they overstimulate others around them is extremely draining and exhausting. No amount of patches I bring will ever keep the foundation from completely crumbling, so walking away from this and letting the crumble go ahead and happen faster than it would becomes the only solution. I know those types of people don't ever want to bring their own patches either. They could just quit creating problems with others, but isn't that answer just too simple and lame, huh?

I can not keep company with people who gain off of the thrill of sucking up energy from other people for them to be treated as the janitor of their fake issues while others are at the same time trying to deal with real ones. I can not juggle my needs mixed in with the extreme over amount of wants of other people acting as if they are needs instead of demands. Stepping back and evaluating what is really mine to deal with and then letting the rest go to where the situation actually came from is the goal.