Sometimes You Have to Step Outside Your Comfort Zone
And That's OK
Almost six months ago. That is when I left my full time nursing position in a doctor’s office. I left because it had turned into a hostile work environment. It was making my life miserable and had me second guessing myself as a nurse. A lot has happened since then. I have been struggling financially. Most of the time I do not know if I will be able to eat three meals a day (I have pretty much been eating only one meal about halfway through the day and I have been trying to drink as much water as possible to curb the hunger feeling). Now, don't get me wrong, I have still been working two part time jobs; they just have not been generating enough income to get all of my bills paid every month. I no longer have cable TV. I had to extend my auto loan by two months and I am currently trying to figure out how I am going to make this month's payment. It took me the entire month of September to pay my rent (and I have not paid it yet this month). I have had to wait until they threaten to cancel my car insurance before I pay it (I have had to do the same with my cell phone as well).
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Pamela Dirr
I like to write based on my personal experiences. It helps me clear my mind. We all go through things in life. Good things. Not so good things. My experiences might also help other people with things that they might be going through.
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